Dancin' Barefoot

too many people have been telling me what I should do lately… people w/good intentions but who don’t listen… who don’t understand

there are parts of me they don’t know… pieces they don’t want to see… But I am tired of living my life in pieces… tired of feeling broken… I am whole… I may not make sense to you… I may not be who you think I should be… but I am not broken…

I am seeking… finding my own way… finding the way to be true to who I am and yet to tear down the walls I’ve always hidden behind… this path is my own… I am exploring… I may not know always know what I am doing, but I am learning.

So don’t tell me to settle… to try harder to accept what I don’t really want… This isn’t about not being alone… There are worse things than being alone… like being lonely when you aren’t alone, like settling for someone in your space when what you want is someone to share yourself & your space with.

This is not about dating or “finding someone” … It’s about opening up… it’s about braving things I’ve never braved before… I may often be confused about how to do this… about what it looks like when I do… BUT I am not confused about what I don’t want… so stop telling me what you think is good for me…  b/c I am not you… I don’t want what you have… 

I am not a “nice girl”… not what you think I am…

I don’t want illusion… I want truth… raw, beautiful truth… and that is something you can’t find or define for me… it is mine to seek

(via bitchesworld)